Blue Diamond Technologies provide activational computer generated and natural visuals coupled with vibro-acoustically tuned frequencies that take experiencers on journeys that are designed to assist in the realization of who they truly are.

They produce visuals, audio and other products to draw people into their own magical heart space. A place of reverence, joy or peace inviting us deeper into the Great Mystery. Blue Diamond Technologies represents a dimension in time and space of immense love, respect and celebration, bringing new technologies to dance in harmony with planet Earth and it's many life forms.  

Here is the video that Dan and Celia Fenn worked on for 999, you may have already seen the one he did with Saleena Ki for 10.10.10, I posted it last month, just before the event.

'Celia Fenn came across some Blue Diamond Videos and we started talking about dong some video work together.  999 was a quick project done to jibe with one of her energy alerts', says Dan. That alert had one of Saleena's vibrakeys and that is how Dan and Saleena started working together. 10:10 was the result of this connection and the new upcomng 11:11 they are working on now.  

Dan and Celia continue to explore ways to do projects together. Before Celia's Brazil plans changed Dan and his Brazillian wife Rose were going down to Brazil to maybe do sound healing sessions and meet with Celia. They are still going to Brazil but unfortunately won't be able to see Celia there. Rose does work and sessions with scents of knowing and gives Diksa Oneness Blessing along with her art.  

Watch out for the 11.11.11 video, the images and energy that accompany it have been 'engineered' by a number of us who work in the light with Dan.

Visit these sites for more sacred images , chants, yantras, mandalas and beautiful nature scenes into these sound technologies. 

http://www.bluediamondpachamama.com/Links%20To%20Movies.html and You Tube http://www.youtube.com/profile?user=bluediamondtech

While Dan has created multiple and diverse businesses, Blue Horizon and Clean and Green Jobs his business, Blue Diamond Technologies, LLC, is the culmination of his life’s education, experience, and work. Blue Diamond Technologies is a place where ancient sciences of the heart meet modern technology.

Colin.

Ravens glisten in our dreams. For millennia, they have inspired the Native American, Asian, Norse and Celtic worlds. The raven, whose black coat shimmers with a translucent blueness in the sun, is a powerful symbol of transformation. To many cultures, the raven symbolizes initiation into a magical path. Like the infamous and oft misunderstood death card of the tarot deck, the raven speaks of leaving one stage of life’s journey to discover another – a fresh opening through which earlier struggles, now understood, become the pathway toward spiritual gold.

This is a perfect picture of my current situation, for it has been a painful coming to terms with all the mess of the past and a gradual uncovering of what I call our ‘inner gold’ – the magic of the true self. I am beginning to develop a sense of the magic that flows through every molecule of our awesome planet. My blue raven is a mythic soul‑friend who beckons me forward to face new challenges, open myself to life’s mysteries and trust that I too can fly. And because she symbolizes my journey so powerfully I have not only used two raven myths (for the Prologue and Epilogue), but have also selected some of my favourite raven quotes and passages to head all the chapters of Part Two – Into The Realm of the Ravens.

Thus the book you now hold is the story of a struggling man who all his life has wrestled with questions, searched for meaning and discovered it in unexpected places. It has no ulterior motive to convert, influence or argue an opinion; nor will it claim any particular religious path, philosophy or theory to be the ‘ultimate truth’. It is simply an attempt to be honest, human and realistic about what we might call the quest for enchantment. As Thomas More says, ‘The soul has an absolute, unforgiving need for regular excursions into enchantment. It requires them like the body needs food and the mind needs thought.’

I feel that need. Every day I experience a magnetic pull towards wonder and mystery. For many years I thought I could satisfy my desire by immersing myself within a religious organisation. Those years were special. I learned many things, but I did not find the long lasting, soul enriching enchantment I longed for.

I started to uncover the reasons for my dissatisfaction as I wrote my first book, The Gospel of Falling Down. Writing often brings with it the therapeutic experience of self-teaching. It is as if the very act of opening ourselves to our deepest thoughts unlocks a voice within that is not often adequately listened to.

That book taught me many lessons. One of them is that we stand on hidden treasure, and only prolong its discovery by searching for it elsewhere. I was struggling within a religious world that seemed to place the object of our quest somewhere ‘out there.’ It saw the spiritual life as a constant climbing of a ladder towards a ‘God’ who was placed out of reach. The task was to struggle, strain and strive to get close to the reward, the ‘treasure’ of salvation. However life has taught me that the greatest treasure is often found when we collapse from our egotistical efforts to climb and achieve, into a broken heap at the bottom of the ladder, where our cracked shell exposes the hidden gold at last – our divine-self. I can now understand why the rigid and burdensome world of organised religion never really freed me. It was a barrier to the divine rather than a doorway.

I’m not alone. Many people are in a similar situation - a place of deep openness towards spiritual things, yet profound disenchantment with formal, mainstream religion. The religion I come from is a Christian tradition. Indeed I served as a Priest for ten years. I still find the person of Jesus intensely exciting. His stories continue to send shivers down my spine. I have not tired of the Church’s founder, but I am tired of Churchianity. In this book I will seek out what for many in that tradition have been forbidden fruits, exploring the rich terrain of the more native, druidic and earth-based spiritualities.

As well as being an ordained Priest I am a magician (conjurer). Magic has been a happy companion of mine throughout these years of disillusionment. I have performed, semi-professionally, for over ten years and my performances have changed dramatically over that period. My magical journey is a necessary part of this story because it has brought the deepest insights into how to live an enchanted life. Stage magic (the art of illusion) keeps alive the possibility of real magic. In such a rationalistic, left-brain western world, magic has fanned the flames of my more intuitive and imaginative faculties. And within a perfection driven, success orientated and often literalistic modern Church culture, magic has been a powerful symbol of the more mysterious and mythic dimensions to faith.

So this book represents the beginning of a new adventure in my life. It is the closure of one door and the opening of another. The door of disillusionment that I close is the world of institutional religion. The door of re‑enchantment that I step through is the world of non-dogmatic spirituality. It is a strange feeling. I am in two states at once – both extreme disillusionment and profound re-enchantment! It is a journey that is taking place as I write, and I want to describe much of it as it happens.

It is divided into three parts:

Part One, Disenchantment, tells the story of my long-term love / hate relationship with the Church. A word of warning! It is (out of necessity) rather irreverent in places. It’s the way I cope when thinking about past experiences, some of which would have crushed me completely were I not to find the humour within them. In any case when I laugh, my loudest cries are always directed at me and the ridiculous situations I got myself into. Learning to laugh at oneself is one of life’s greatest forms of liberation! Not laughter as ridicule, but laughter as a gentle acknowledgement of how what seemed so serious is all really very trivial.

Part Two, Into the Realm of the Ravens, describes how a ‘chance’ encounter with a spiritual tradition vastly different to my own, triggered a new phase in my journey - an opening up to deeper enchantment. Being a nature-based path this experience has helped me to understand and tie together the many quasi-druidic experiences I’ve had over previous years. The process of re-enchantment is occurring as I write and, because I want the book to be totally authentic, I will describe some of it as it happens.

Part Three, Tales from Beyond the Magic Doorway, is a beautiful collection of real-life accounts of others who’ve stepped through a similar ‘magic doorway’ into the re-enchanted world of nature-based spirituality. Among their company are an International Bestselling Novelist, a Christian Bishop, a French Canadian Potter, an American Indian Artist and a US Navy Sailor (who was once a Catholic Monk!). I invited them to share their unique stories because I am utterly convinced they will ring loud bells and offer much comfort to like-minded seekers.

If you are, or have been, part of a traditional faith and feel you are missing something, or if you are seeking the magic of the divine within, then this book is for you! In sharing my journey, and the stories of others, you will be introduced to a world of like-minded people - ordinary people who have stepped off the mainstream, onto the path of personal magic. I invite you to walk with me as I tread this well-worn path. And who knows? Perhaps together we shall be enchanted, inspired and brought close again to the magic that dances under our feet.  

Mark Townsend.

This month Bonnie Starr sent through her last 'Healing from the Heart' article which is a section from her book Beyond Forgiveness: Spiritual Alchemy. As I have already reviewed it I thought I'd include the message here in Soul Search as the book has such a profound impact on me. Also this will be our opportunity to thank Bonnie Starr for so many inspiring messages and to send our best wishes for her somewhat unknown future. So many of my friends have embarked on a completely new journey this month, it would seem the energies are really moving now.

No, no, you might say, I don’t want an eye for an eye.  I don’t need revenge.  I’m willing to surrender my need for vengeance.  I simply want an apology; I want to see and feel that they feel really, really, really badly about what they did or said.  I want them to suffer emotionally as I have suffered.  One of my friends said to me once that to forgive someone requires that they (the offender) take responsibility for their actions or words, apologize and make amends.  This is the way many of us feel; but forgiveness requires nothing except the willingness on the part of the one who feels hurt or angry to forgive.  Forgiveness requires nothing, because love requires nothing.  Love simply is for giving – without condition, without restraint.       

Now if I do something about which another feels hurt or offended or that causes them pain, who I am, the person I choose to be, will take responsibility for my words and actions, will apologize and seek to make amends.   I do it as much for myself as the other, for when I apologize and make amends, I am able to begin the process of forgiving myself for hurting the other.   As for the other, I have no control over whether or when they will forgive me; I can only do what I can to rectify my mistake and then forgive myself.  When, however, it comes to forgiving other people for what they have said and done - yes, an apology would be great, amends would be great, - but will I withhold forgiveness, will I hang on to my resentment, my ill will, my anger and hate?  I choose not to do so.

Why?  You may ask.  Here is the reason, plain and simple.  It is not about them.  It is about me.  It is about me because whenever I perceive another as having been the cause of my pain – real as it may be, real as the injuries may be - I am assuming the role of the victim.  When we assume the victim role, we have given our power away to the one who has caused the harm or the injury.  This give away is not intentional; but it happens.  First, you have given them the power to determine how you feel and who you are in relation to them and to what occurred; you have fallen into the victim trap.  Then, for so long as you withhold forgiveness, as long as you hold on to your anger, your hate, your resentment, your ill will, you are still their victim, trapped (you believe) until they set you free by making it “right.”  There is only one person, however, who can set you free, who can make whatever happens to you in your life “right.”  That person is you.  No one can do this for you.  Even one who makes amends and apologizes – will that have been enough?  How many of you have heard (as I have) an apology and still stewed in a huff for another hour or another day?  Only you can decide what is enough, and you can decide whether they “need” to do anything at all before you will be free again.  It is you who holds the power to set you free and only you can exercise it.

In the movie, The Interpreter, a white woman from the small African nation of Koo who works as an interpreter at the UN learns of an assassination plot against the president of her country, a man whom she both admired as a child for his efforts to free the country from a despot and whom as a woman she hated for having become a despot himself, killing her parents, sister and thousands of others.  Nevertheless, she comes forward with the information.  The special secret service agent assigned to protect this president learns of her history and begins to suspect that she may be involved in the assassination plot.  He challenges both her story of how she learned of the plot and her motives.  In response she tells him this:  Among her people, the Koo, when someone is killed, the killer is bound tightly and taken out on a boat into the middle of the lake, with the whole community watching.  The killer is tossed out of the boat.  The family of the person killed has a choice:  They can jump into the lake and save the killer from drowning, or they can stand and watch him drown.  The choice is theirs to make. It is believed that if they save the killer, they will be freed from mourning within a year, and that if they let the killer drown, they will mourn for the rest of their days. 

This story is not about the killer.  It is about the power of love and forgiveness.  Choosing to let the killer drown, the family remains bound to him and to their grief.   Choosing to save the killer, the family saves themselves – frees themselves.  Such is the power of forgiveness.

As this wonderful story demonstrates, forgiveness is not about the other person.  It is about you.  It is about healing you.  It is about restoring you to love, to peace, to your own authentic power.  It is about restoring you to Grace, to that place where you know that you and no one can ever be harmed for you are the Power and the Presence of God in the place where you stand.  And sometimes, as in the story, when we do this, we redeem the other as well.  And what does it mean to Redeem?  It is to claim what is yours – as redeem a prize you’ve already won – or to buy back that which is yours.  Forgiveness is for your own redemption:  you take back your power; you reclaim your divine sovereignty and power.  With redemption comes atonement:  at one ment.  You become whole again, and at one with what is, including the other.  You make it possible for them to be good again, by holding up to them a mirror of their own innate goodness. 

Here is a note from Bonnie Starr:-

As of October 31, 2009, I am shutting down my website and terminating my coaching practice (except for those of you in my current CWG groups).    As a result there will be no further monthly Healing from the Heart ezines.  From time to time, however, unless you let me know that you do not wish to receive emails from me, I may send something I have written that I would like to share with you.  As with each of the other times I have leapt into the unknown of what my next step will be, I feel a certain amount of apprehension and relief - relief if for no other reason that I have made the decision.   I could make up a whole story about why I have made the decision, but in the end it really comes to one thing:  as I walked the other day, I just knew it was time.   I trust that whatever I am going to do next will arrive in Divine timing. 

Because I will be shutting down the website at that time, you will no longer be able to order copies of Beyond Forgiveness: Spiritual Alchemy, through it.  If you would like to buy one (it would make a great Christmas or Hanukah gift!) after October 31, 2009, please email me at:  IAMbonniestarr@gmail.com  I still have a limited number of the books on hand at the $14.95 (plus applicable taxes, S&H) price, which is $10 off the retail price set by the publisher. 

Thank you all for allowing me to be a part of your journey.

Blessings,

Bonnie Starr

For quite a number of years I have been aware of the work Masaru Emoto has been doing with water, it is difficult to pick up a book about the new sciences without some mention being made of his amazing work. However this month I finally bought one of his books to read about this phenomenon for myself and get some idea of what he thinks about his work.

His key findings, as you may know, relate to the way human consciousness can impact water, and his experiments show some convincing and conclusive results when he photographs water crystals.

He describes his experiments with printed words and how they can change the way water crystals are formed, for example the words Love and Gratitude can create the most beautiful crystals whereas negative words result in little or no crystal formations or where they are formed they are distorted and incomplete.

Music can also impact water, and the crystals formed from composers such as Chopin or Mozart are quite exquisite. As you might expect music with little tonal beauty, such as heavy metal, creates distorted and malformed crystals.

In other experiments he uses spoken words, for example water that is told ‘you’re cute’ forms beautiful crystals, and water that is told ‘you fool’ creates malformed and contorted shapes.

So here the conclusion that water is impacted by human consciousness has been visually presented, and for that reason it is difficult to ignore or brush away. Dr Emoto’s scientific techniques are faultless and so his results demand the attention they have been gaining, both in the scientific world and in publications like The Magic of Being (smile).

So what does Masaru Emoto make of his own findings, what conclusions has he drawn from them. This for me is the most interesting part of the book, because he begins to explain how these experiments and their results can provide the backdrop for some pretty remarkable ideas.

‘Let me ask you to think about why crystal formation would be affected by music, and why completely different results would be reached depending on the spoken and written words water was exposed to,’ he writes, ‘The answer is found, again, in the fact that everything is vibration. Water – so sensitive to the unique frequencies being emitted by the world – essentially and efficiently mirrors the outside world.’

‘The written words themselves actually emit a unique vibration that the water is capable of sensing. Water faithfully mirrors all the vibrations created in the world, and changes these vibrations into a form that can be seen with the human eye.’

‘The words gratitude and love form the fundamental principles of the laws of nature and the phenomenon of life. Therefore, water in its natural form is required to create the hexagonal form. By contrast, words such as ‘you fool’ do not exist in nature and are instead unnatural elements created by people. Words that revile, harm, and ridicule are the result of the culture created by humans. It is likely that only vibrations of love and gratitude appear in nature, and observation of nature shows this to be true.’

He shares many more observations that follow a similar line of thought, that suggest there may be something more to the world that the things we see or hear with our senses. ‘I only ask that you listen to and absorb what water has to say – to all of humankind, and to you’.

This book can have a profound impact on you the reader, as it had on me. Be prepared to be amazed and awed.

With love,

Colin.

This video clip is broken down into four 10 minute sections, so you can split the viewing up if you only have a few minutes. After the first one you'll be redirected to YouTube.

I just had to sit, watch and listen to them all the way through.

I hope you enjoy,

With Love,

Colin.

Last month I changed the format of the web site to reflect some of the changing energies that were coming through in May and June, and also to be able to respond more quickly to news that came through mid-edition, to create a kind of ‘stop press’ section.

Initially this was to accommodate some of the new material that was coming through from Saleena and Marimar about the Whales and the work we were doing there. As part of this I asked Saleena to design me a new Banner as the old one did not fit properly and no longer supported the ‘new’ feel I was looking for.

She quickly realised that in order to find the right energy for the banner she would need to do a Soul Portrait of me. This would be to draw out the Magician (or Magi) part of me, that part that inspired the Magic of Being in the first place. So I asked my daughter Jo and her friend Celine to take some photos of me for Saleena to use. The one used was taken by Celine (thank you).

This has been a collaborative process which has involved many stages of development. I’d like to share some of that with you so that you can see what goes into a Soul Portrait. Some of it will be conversational, as we have been communicating through Skype chat (a very useful tool for this kind of work).

If you have read our interview with Saleena you will know that she communicates with many different ‘beings’ from just about everywhere, so the conversation reflects their input (over time I have been ‘hearing’ from our friends too, although my speciality is feeling their energy).

Saleena: To begin with, the photo was of the ordinary "undercover" agent, of the magi, of magic on the street, in his street clothes. No one would guess his hidden identity.... especially his unsuspecting daughter and her friend who were taking the photos....

Then the metamorphosis begins....

He melts the old clothes to reveal his Magi robes, made of the fabric of space, full of tesseracts and wrinkles in time and space. Stars and moons and galaxies reside within him... for he is a time traveller; a Pilot. His specialty is Spheres, here - here is one just for you! The light of ‘home’ beams continually into his diamond heart, generating the full spectrum rainbow light....

Speaking of spheres, one of his favorites is Earth. He loves our Mother Earth so very, very much. As a weaver, he watches over her and weaves the new crystalline, golden flame/ blue fire codes into the waters, into the rainbow light, and he helps her to raise her vibrations. Her golden crystalline emanations now prove his success.

He straddles realities and cradles the earth...weaving, weaving, weaving..... The Crab and the Bull are his best friends and they support him with their love. Look at the Arcturian Corridor opening now... inviting him in, inviting you in..... (the star at the top right side is Arcturus)

He has taken the new human design inside and now radiates the golden light...(see VK09)

Colin: Yes - it's being activated by this acknowledgement of all that I am, seeing it for the first time is helping.. so much power from the portrait..

Saleena: There is much more to a soul portrait than just a graphic rendition... usually a channelling comes with or along with it... like this one... so I am asking if there is anything else? Any part of you wants to share? Any of your guides?

Saleena: Yes, please, I am shama-lu, I am the Magi. I am intent to bring myself forward in a discreet and powerful way, into the earth plane and expanding into the whole of creation. Without igniting my Earth self we are lacking wholeness. All the tools and energies are now aligning. It is part of the frequencies your beloved Arcturian team is giving you now (this is the same team we are working with that hosts the VK37 Sublime Health Project) ...swallow me whole beloved Colin... for we are one!

Take me inside that we might completely merge... the Pilot, the Sirian, the Arcturian, the Dragon, the Weaver, the Christed One, he who strokes Mother Earth's cheek and makes love to her, he who rides through the universe as one with all... he who stands before time as Elemental Creator... merge now....

There are words you must let flow from your consciousness. They are key codes to activate this merging.... There are three. Write them for you will be asked to bring them to a council meeting and there you will know what to do with them. Make a Mandala and within it will emerge the three codes.

I went off and drew the Mandala, quite a simple affair, but just about as soon as I started I was getting the words ‘Golden Star Being’ in my head.

The next day:-

Colin: The first words that came through, and stayed with me, were 'Golden Star Being' . Later I also got 'white' but not so clearly.. The Mandala ended up being a rainbow web based on a 10 pointed star..

As I journey: I Am with the council, they said Golden Star Being was fine, Galactic would also have worked. They, the council, flowed into me and the Magi codes are now switching on.. permission granted...

I called the mandala 'Enter the Magi ' and am now opening more, the Arcturian team are helping. I noticed a similarity of form from my Mandala and the Sublime Health Vibrakey, the Arcturian team have been using parts of the design to bring this part of me forward. I can feel their/our combined heart.

Saleena: okay, Are the words ‘Golden Star Being ‘ the three key code words? They are saying Yes. Did he complete the council meeting? Council: Yes.

Saleena: Then what am I to do with his key code words? Council: Turn them gold and imprint them into his chest.... we will show you exactly where. Then you will turn them to a small percent where the energy is there yet they do not show to the common eye.

Colin: I felt the council move inside me, but am not sure which council, can we ask who they are and how they are connected to my Magi self?

Saleena: There seems to be three beings standing there....

Colin: Council - We are part of a larger group of souls and are here to assist in your assimilation of your Magi self, as you call him. This is the Magical part of yourself you have been feeling for some time now, and who has been inspiring your activities, particularly with the web site.

We are a group from mixed backgrounds, so one reason why you cannot fix a place for us is that we are from many places, just as you are. We are multi-dimensional beings and reside in many dimensions.

You were guided to reach out when you came to a particular point in your journey and when the external conditions were optimum, such as the 21st June Solstice. Much work has been going on both within your energetic fields and without, to make this transition happen 'magically'.

Saleena: Name of Council and Purpose?

Colin: I am getting The Galactic Frequency Council of Galactic Starfleet Command, they were channelled by Catherine Richardson and I featured her book last month.

Council: 'Yes, that's right, no coincidence that you read about us there'.

Colin: From Catherine’s book - "We work outside of time. We work in a dimension not yet identified. There are many entities and energies with which and with whom we work. We work with the Christ. We work with Krishna. We work with Allah. We work with the Buddha. We work with God. All aspects of the same energy."

At this point Saleena sends through the Portrait before the codes are embedded.

Saleena: I’m sending you the version with the codes on top before they melt in....

Amazing your portrait is being created as it happens to you... wonderful!

Colin: That's deep, thank you - love the codes.

Saleena: Now they are sinking into you.... under the shirt..... deeper in.....They are a signature in your soul now.... that can be read. This seems to be a graduation in your school of magic....

At this point we could feel that the portrait was complete and was ready to be shared. Here’s the final version.

Feedback so far has been amazing, I do hope you like it,

With Love,

Colin.

Last year I was lucky enough to attend a course run by one of our senior executives which made me realize a revolution was under way, the course was called Deep Democracy, and it is for many a life changing event.

"Deep Democracy has its roots in Arnold Mindell’s Process Orientated Psychology. Its scientific concepts and principals have been demystified in order to make it relevant and applicable to the layperson. This process has taken over fifteen years of intensive work by psychologists Myrna Lewis and her late husband Greg Lewis.

The work commenced in South Africa just after the transition from apartheid to the New South Africa, when Myrna and Greg were asked by a large utility company to facilitate change within a 5 000 employee strong division. Accustomed to the old, prejudiced way of functioning, the division needed help in becoming aligned with a different way of operating. Three years down the line Deep Democracy was recognized for enabling people to resolve their racial tension and work together through decision-making processes.

From this tension-filled soil, Deep Democracy has grown, and continues to evolve. Over the past decade Deep Democracy’s principles and methods have been used successfully in many countries from Ireland to India and in a variety of contexts from businesses to schools.

It has been used as a method for conflict resolution and mediation, organizational change and development, community development, leadership training and facilitation of group processes. It stands testament to the power of inclusion and diversity in real and sustained change".

It is an ‘energy’ based process that describes the ‘group consciousness’ and shows how to resolve conflict, particularly when we use voting as our democratic decision tool.

Now Mryna Lewis has published a book which describes Deep Democracy called Inside the No and I would recommend it. Not only does it cover the key aspects of the toolset, it also helps us understand our own internal arguments and struggles, and makes it a little easier to resolve them.

If you are interested in how group consciousness works with personal relationships, at home or at work (even in the wider community) then you will find this an excellent read.

To order a copy go to http://www.deep-democracy.net/inside.htm

Colin.

This book was given as a Christmas present last year and it has taken me three months to read it through (although I have to admit I usually have 3 books on the go at one time, so that is not really how long it might take an average reader, just my preference for variety).

I had read before that a number of the world’s greatest thinkers were masters (that is to say spiritual masters that are now being channelled and reported on web sites like this one) and that many of their inspirations were guided by a greater consciousness. That said I have been reading materials like that for some years and so am not overly disturbed by these kind of assertions.

It was something of a surprise though that Jonathan Black has catalogued in some detail (and meticulously researched it would seem) how consciousness has developed over the lifetime of our planet, and how individual thinkers and groups have guided and assisted that development.

He skillfully tracks humanity’s development from the original open and loving creatures we once were, fully conscious of our spiritual heritage and living in complete harmony with our surroundings, right through to the current illusion of separation, and how we are now returning to those more awakened times.

The interesting thing for me, as Jonathan explains, is that the secret societies that we have been taught to fear and persecute were the very institutions that were here to assist with keeping our consciousness open and our freedom alive, rather than the pattern we have chosen over the years of fear and control.

Having just read one of the reviews of this book from the traditional press I can see that even a well researched and convincingly constructed argument will still leave some people unconvinced. I however loved the book as it filled in many of the gaps I had observed in other less thorough tomes.

If you like getting into some detail (and a good long read) and are interested in a different view of the world to the one you may be familiar with, then give yourself a treat and dive in, I think you’ll find its worth it.

For more information have a look at Jonathan’s own journal at Inside Out Thinking or Graham Hancock’s web site, where the book is discussed further.

I’ve been reading Bonnie Starr’s lovely book Beyond Forgiveness:Spiritual Alchemywhere she shares some wonderful and intimate learnings from her own experience.

Having just read about her issues with dogs (read the book for more details) I began to ‘get’ this forgiveness thing, and did not have very long to wait before I experienced a deep healing through going beyond forgiveness, by going beyond and looking at my own behaviour and attitudes.

For some time I have been observing my wife and daughter standing in their own way (my judgement), each of them are so big (their energy field, and love) that they can only let small bits of themselves through at any one time (this is just my observation and opinion clearly). This manifests in many different ways which I will not go into here, as I was to discover this was not about them at all, it was about me!

So I’m reading Bonnie’s book on the train and as I change from one line to another I sit in a coffee lounge where I order (automatically) an Americano with milk (this will be number 2 for the day!). A quiet voice was saying I should choose something like a calming tea, but this was overruled by the person who was in control of all body functions, like voice, movement and so forth. I watch as my voice orders the coffee, and then as I consume the coffee satisfied.

Later on the next train I tune into myself and notice, as always, that the coffee has had it’s usual effect. Instead of my energy running effortlessly through my body giving me a feeling of bliss and contentment, it felt a bit sharp and edgy, like water flowing over a rocky river bed, the lumps and bumps in the river bed (or my cells) trying to stop the smooth flow and creating currents and eddies.

Then I asked ‘what does this mean?’ as Bonnie suggests, and I saw myself hiding behind a slightly open door. It was like I was looking out to see if it was safe, but always ready to close the door quickly lest someone saw me.

Mentally I reached out through my heart and asked for forgiveness ‘I am so sorry to hide myself away, so sorry, please forgive me (I love you). Then I had the realisation that it was myself behind the door and myself looking on who were both forgiving each other. At this point I saw a line of slightly open doors snaking out into space where aspects of myself were sneaking a look through slightly open cracks. At once I felt them all open, each one was a reflection being held for me by my loved ones and people in my life. Each one bowed and waved as then opened their doors wide and stepped through (it makes me cry just typing it).

Then as the end of this snaking image of doors was a bright bright light, as each door opened more of this light became visible. This was my own God self that I was opening to and allowing in, to shine without hindrance or sabotage, to be here fully, now.

What an amazing shift, because up to this point I had the view that I’m fine, I’m on my path and am shining out for all to see, it’s the others that need to connect and ‘get on with it!’.

Now I can see they were lovingly reflecting back to me that although I have come a long way I still have quite some way to go. Now I know much more clearly how to ‘see’ or ‘hear’ my messages, how to see my reflection in all around me, and how to begin to forgive myself more deeply than ever before.

Thank you Bonnie Starr, so much.

Postscript:- I since drank a further 3 cups of coffee, this habit is really established – and deeper and deeper I went – yet more forgiveness, yet more insights. Phew!

If you would like to buy a copy (it would make a great Christmas or Hanukah gift!) after October 31, 2009, please email Bonnie Starr at:  IAMbonniestarr@gmail.com  She still has a limited number of the books on hand at the $14.95 (plus applicable taxes, S&H) price, which is $10 off the retail price set by the publisher.